Believe it or not, it's real.
It is believed we* have triggers that set these things off, but I've been working for years on learning what those triggers are and how to deal with them before they cause a malfunction.
Over time, I've learned what sets me off and what keeps things working orderly.
I haven't overcome all that challenges me, but I've got a pretty good grip on most of it.
I am here, but really where am I ?
I take my medicine (which I fought for years to do, but now I never miss a dose), take my vitamins, eat clean healthy balanced meals/snacks, and exercise daily. I think positively, i speak positively (I don't see through rose colored glasses, I just choose to make the best of a situation) and I work on faith, hope and love daily... blah blah blah ... the point is, I haven't given up. I work hard everyday at controlling my mental health.
What happened... a traumatic event or events?
So Why is this happening?
back in November, I completed the marathon which I had been preparing for all year, talk about setting myself up for a high/low crash! This led into the next month of "off-season" recovery for training which means not much running or intense exercise sessions. My routine was shaken; holiday's, days off, different foods, altered sleep schedules. To top it off, my best buddy died.
I miss the love and interaction we had day in and out. Oh, and lack of sunshine doesn't help when you are solar powered. Now even the small triggers, like social interaction, confrontations, money talk, obstacles etc seem ginormous to me as well.